A small or rather insignificant event on my way to office today sparked a flurry of thoughts which soon developed into a full blown blizzard and set a snowball rolling which was getting bigger as it did so... let me come down to what really happened...
The morning today had a lazy undertone to it. I woke up a little late than I usually do and lingered on that steaming cup of tea for just a few extra minutes. So all in all I knew I wouldn’t have been able to board the bus which is my usual ride to office and I decided to ride on my scooter instead.
Its August end and it is monsoon time in this part of India. The sky is either supposed to be totally overcast or it should be pouring cats and dogs during this time of the year...although this year monsoon is carrying all the signs of an approaching famine. The sky was dotted with huge grey clouds but the Sun managed to pour its scorching heat on us lesser beings for most of time. There were moments of brief relief from the heat as the clouds covered the sun just about for a moment or few moments to be generous. While I was trying to manoeuvre my little ride through the clamour and chaos on the road the heat was becoming unbearable. I looked up at the sky and was hoping that a huge cloud should cover the sun and remain that way till I reached office. I then glanced back at the road ahead and lo and behold there was a patch of shadow just a few yards away. I was elated (prematurely as I look back) at the thought that ok just a few yards to go and I will end up in the shadow of that huge, kind, fluffy sweet cloud floating above me. As I continued to ride and was approaching the shadow..it was diminishing fast and moving away. I was trying my best to get to it and yet there it was moving away. At first because of the traffic I couldn’t speed up...and later when the road was open my little scooter’s speed was a limitation the wind started blowing and the shadow fast disappeared in front of me.
I was a little disappointed and realised that this was just a symbolic event that spoke of the story of many people’s lives...including mine. One faces lots of scorching days in life under stress and discomfort hoping to reach the shadow of happiness and contentedness. The shadow keeps on eluding him/her making the person continue enduring the hard times and still keeps the carrot dangling in front of the donkey.
There are situations in life where one can’t really control the adverse conditions or even an outcome of a long standing/meditated issue. In such situations one accepts what is offered and waits for the time where he hopes to have the control back from life. But wait is there really a time like that where an individual really controls all or most of what happens? It’s just another mirage is what I feel. Like when the road was all empty and all I had to do was race up my bike and get to the shadow, but once again life or the situation lets say mocked at me, made me realise that all the peace that I want is right there in front of me to grab yet I couldn’t because my ride wasn’t as powerful. So I either have to make peace with what life offers me or if I dare to choose and demand what I want, I have to keep on running behind the shadow called peace. Do I really or will I ever have a choice?
In numerous situations like these when we are either not in control or are in pseudo control, all we end up getting is despair and shattered hopes. Yet we keep on living, hoping against hope that one fine day, we will be in the shadow for good. Hope is the only thing that makes the donkeys run behind the dangling carrots. So is hoping right or wrong? I really don’t know the answer to this...food for more thought
Well I took a short break from running behind my very own dangling carrots..but now I have to get back as the hope and greed of digging my teeth into at least one of them is compelling
The morning today had a lazy undertone to it. I woke up a little late than I usually do and lingered on that steaming cup of tea for just a few extra minutes. So all in all I knew I wouldn’t have been able to board the bus which is my usual ride to office and I decided to ride on my scooter instead.
Its August end and it is monsoon time in this part of India. The sky is either supposed to be totally overcast or it should be pouring cats and dogs during this time of the year...although this year monsoon is carrying all the signs of an approaching famine. The sky was dotted with huge grey clouds but the Sun managed to pour its scorching heat on us lesser beings for most of time. There were moments of brief relief from the heat as the clouds covered the sun just about for a moment or few moments to be generous. While I was trying to manoeuvre my little ride through the clamour and chaos on the road the heat was becoming unbearable. I looked up at the sky and was hoping that a huge cloud should cover the sun and remain that way till I reached office. I then glanced back at the road ahead and lo and behold there was a patch of shadow just a few yards away. I was elated (prematurely as I look back) at the thought that ok just a few yards to go and I will end up in the shadow of that huge, kind, fluffy sweet cloud floating above me. As I continued to ride and was approaching the shadow..it was diminishing fast and moving away. I was trying my best to get to it and yet there it was moving away. At first because of the traffic I couldn’t speed up...and later when the road was open my little scooter’s speed was a limitation the wind started blowing and the shadow fast disappeared in front of me.
I was a little disappointed and realised that this was just a symbolic event that spoke of the story of many people’s lives...including mine. One faces lots of scorching days in life under stress and discomfort hoping to reach the shadow of happiness and contentedness. The shadow keeps on eluding him/her making the person continue enduring the hard times and still keeps the carrot dangling in front of the donkey.
There are situations in life where one can’t really control the adverse conditions or even an outcome of a long standing/meditated issue. In such situations one accepts what is offered and waits for the time where he hopes to have the control back from life. But wait is there really a time like that where an individual really controls all or most of what happens? It’s just another mirage is what I feel. Like when the road was all empty and all I had to do was race up my bike and get to the shadow, but once again life or the situation lets say mocked at me, made me realise that all the peace that I want is right there in front of me to grab yet I couldn’t because my ride wasn’t as powerful. So I either have to make peace with what life offers me or if I dare to choose and demand what I want, I have to keep on running behind the shadow called peace. Do I really or will I ever have a choice?
In numerous situations like these when we are either not in control or are in pseudo control, all we end up getting is despair and shattered hopes. Yet we keep on living, hoping against hope that one fine day, we will be in the shadow for good. Hope is the only thing that makes the donkeys run behind the dangling carrots. So is hoping right or wrong? I really don’t know the answer to this...food for more thought
Well I took a short break from running behind my very own dangling carrots..but now I have to get back as the hope and greed of digging my teeth into at least one of them is compelling